"When I'm there dancing, making out with whoever I'm with, I don't have to pretend.
Yes, I'm macho, and perhaps it's a lie, but in there we all know." This fear has led many "straight" married men to lead out secret trysts using dating apps like adam4adam, an online hookup site and app.
"They pulled him out and just attacked him; they beat him pretty badly.I remember my brothers and the other boys cheering." Rios said he thought they were going to kill him."At that moment, I knew I wasn't going to be like the ranch hand; I would never be a maricón," Rios said."She said that fashion was not a man's job," Velasquez said. I let go of that dream because I knew I would never get the support from my mother or family." Velasquez now majors in anthropology at University of California at Irvine.He said his mother even tried to get him to skip college and go to a vocational career. It makes me laugh because I would like to think that my family would want me to aim higher." Velasquez has sashayed away from machismo and embraced the elegance of drag culture when he hits the stage as "La Buganvilia." "I always told people that I didn't like that stuff, and that I would never dress up like a woman because I was a man, a gay man, and that's how God had made me," Velasquez said. It is a way that I can still live my dream of fashion and costume making.